Feeling Emo.6/19/13

Sipping on a glass of chilled red wine that would make my mom and grandma tsk tsk I am feeling a bit more mellow than moments ago, which reminded me of an angst ridden time, of which I do not like being physically reminded of.

I got news of the miscarriage three weeks ago, and am pondering "am I better." That seems quite convoluted right now. 

Time has passed, most friends don't ask me how I am any more, which is normal I am sure. Life keeps going, the world keeps spinning, and what do you even say? People can't read minds and I think most people feel it necessary to move on, as if to inspire joy which is what the person hung out to fry must want. I know life isn't over. I am incredibly blessed. Things could be worse. They could also be better.

My head is what I would like to reason with. I am plagued with feelings of inadequacy and a shit-tastic sense of self worth, which skews everything in my life. 

Tomorrow is a new day.